Supernatural Eyesight: A Testimony of Repentance

The Testimony

This morning I woke up and positioned myself to spend time with the Lord, but I felt something was off in my spiritual connection. So I asked Him, “What am I feeling? Have I grieved Your Spirit? If so, I repent — show me what, and show me how.”

My mind went straight to a relative who had been reaching out to me, back-to-back, about something on her heart. At the time, I was on a call with Pastor Greg, so I couldn't respond. When I got free, she called — and before I even answered, like so many of us do (whether we say it out loud or just think it), I muttered, “What does she want? Ugh.”

I didn't think twice about it. I do it often, and not just with her.

But then it hit me: I will spend hours listening to others who speak my language — Kingdom conversations. I'll even listen to unbelievers who just want someone to drain for hours. But when a loved one wants and needs me? I don't want to be bothered.

We love the outside world more than our own blood. And God is not pleased with me — or with anyone else who does the same. This fast is revealing my heart more than ever, and I'm taking heed. If you're guilty too, I pray you follow suit.

And if I'm honest, I've hidden behind excuses to justify it. I've called a relative “annoying” or said they “get on my nerves” — as if irritation were a righteous reason to withhold my time. That's not righteousness; that's unrenewed flesh looking for permission. The church loves to wear the mask of holiness while still handpicking who receives the love of Christ from us. That's proof we haven't crucified the flesh — because flesh always sounds reasonable to itself.

“But those who won't care for their relatives, especially those in their own household, have denied the true faith. Such people are worse than unbelievers.” — 1 Timothy 5:8 (NLT)

It starts with our loved ones. Only then can God trust us with His people. How can we carry concern for the souls of strangers and not extend simple acts of love and kindness to our own family? Some of them are starving for love and companionship — and I have failed miserably in this area. God hears our hearts before we even open our mouths, and the state of my heart in that moment did not please Him.

“Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: and see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.” — Psalm 139:23-24 (KJV)

No matter how we appear before man, God sees our hearts. And I want mine clean before both God and man.

“Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.” — Matthew 5:8 (NKJV)

I want eyes to see what God desires for me to see. I need my spiritual eyes opened — to see people, including my own family, the way God sees them. I need SUPERNATURAL EYESIGHT to fulfill my destiny. Amen.

The Measure

Conviction without a next step just leaves people condemned instead of changed. So for whoever reads this and feels the same tug:

1. Catch the muttered word. That “ugh, what does she want” moment is diagnostic — not random irritation, but a heart posture. Next time it happens, stop and ask the Lord what it's revealing.

2. Give family the first fruits, not the leftovers. If you have energy for hours-long Kingdom conversations, or even for draining unbelievers, that same energy belongs first to the people God already gave you.

3. Make one deliberate exchange this week. Trade one “outside” conversation for one call, text, or visit with the family member you've been avoiding. Not out of guilt — out of obedience.

4. Ask, don't assume. Before assuming what a relative “wants,” ask how she's really doing. Often the surface request is just the door — she may be hungry for something deeper.

5. Name the excuse for what it is. “They're annoying” or “they get on my nerves” isn't discernment — it's flesh justifying itself. Next time it rises up, call it what it is and repent instead of agreeing with it.